I DONT WANT TO LIVE!.. PLEASE HELP!!!

Well i will not say more about emotions all members here did a great job
Now About Money :-
I think you made the biggest mistake
& sadly everybody does it
Don't invest all your money in Stock or FX or Real state market
People Should invest at MAX 75% of their money
That is why i dodged the financial crisis that happened in Stock market
To get money besides Work outside
i advice you to go to http://www.freelunchroom.com/board/
& learn about IFW sites & referrals system
my friend do it & get 600$ to 800$ a month by spending 15 min in front the computer talking survey & things like that
all you need a valid US phone line .
& get a second job
& it is better to listen to motivational Audio books while you driving to work
My dad had to work 3 jobs at once for a year
before he get a big offer to work in Gulf Country in the middle east


Is hard time but you will manage

While i cannot relate to your situation emotionally as i haven't personally experienced it but first thing that popped into mind when read your story is the famous words of Napoleon Hill

Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed on an equal or greater benefit.

Remember this famous words of Winston Churchill,

On October 29, 1941, United Kingdom (Great Britain) Prime Minister Winston Churchill visited Harrow School to to hear the traditional songs he had sung there as a youth, as well as to speak to the students. This became one of his most quoted speeches.

Churchill stood before the students and said, "Never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, give in. Never give in. Never give in. Never give in." Then he sat down.


Please do whatever makes you feel good but don't even think about ending your life... Think about all the things that you will loose... life, family, friends and everything else...

AND YOU WILL MAKE LIVES OF OTHERS EVEN MORE MISERABLE THAN WHAT IT IS NOW BY TAKING YOUR LIFE AWAY.

Life is too precious my friend to be lost... Find something to live for and just devote yourself 100%

Remember this golden words of Dean Briggs
Do your work; not just your work and no more, but a little more for the lavishings sake that little more which is worth all the rest. And every now and then as you doubt as you must and if you suffer as you must, just do your work and out of your sheer pain will be borne the supreme joy of life. Just do you work !! Put your heart and soul into it !!


And if you are really looking for some inspiration from your situation then watch the movie "the pursuit of happyness". It is a true story of Chris Gardner who went from ruined marriage, ruined family, ruined career, no home, no money, no food and no job to multi-millionaire...

Keep small goals and try to reach them.... Don't even think about trying to do everything on your own because you cannot.... Have complete and blind faith in god... Do you part and god will do his...

I HAVE COMPLETE FAITH THAT GOD IS BY YOUR SIDE AND WILL CERTAINLY HELP YOU IF YOU ARE WILLING TO HELP YOURSELF.

God bless you my friend,
KM

Man, believe me you do not want to die, you will miss a lot of great things.
A lot of rich people were in your situation, because the road to wealth is not straight up. You are the most valuable thing in this world, your family loves you for who you are and not for your green paper.
You have gained knowledge from this experience, you are young, you are capable, this economic crisis will pass and the economy will rise again, so will you.
Focus more on what you have not on what you don't, if you can master your emotions it will be a lot better, because then you will think clear. You have nothing to loose, allow yourself to be happy, because if you live in this stress you will destroy your health and health is the most important aspect, if you have health you can make money, if you have money but no health is a lot worse.

Remember, Life is a game, money is how we keep score, don't quit the game, PLAY IT!

Guys!

First of all i want to say thank you for your messages. I'm just really frustrated for all the things going on in my life.

It's not that i'm suicidal. I've thought about it, i'm not going to lie. Specially when i'm driving. It's just that i don't feel i want to live man.

But then i realize all the things i'm going to miss and all the things that i can accomplish and i see some hope.

I just don't know what to do to get out of this hole that i'm in. And i know money is not happiness but the majority of my problems revolve around money.

Sometimes i wish i could just leave everything behind and just live in a small island. On some remote village, where i don't have to worry about debt or how i'm going to be able to pay rent this month.

So thank you all for taking time out of your busy life in order to send me a message of hope and help. I really appreciate it.

Specially since you guys don't know me. I feel more confortable just sitting here in my bed writting to you guys than talking to my friends or family.

To answer some of your questions... I had a restaurant. I learned a lot from it. But i learned the hard way. I lost a lot of money because i didn't know what i was doing. But one of the consequences is that i'm afraid of taking more risks. I know it should not be that way but i'm working on it.

right know i'm just in the process of thinking about what to do next. I just don't know. I've ran out of ideas. And i feel like i should start doing something but i don't know what. I just don't want to wait years of my life just working and paying this high debt in order to start thinking about the future.

I would like to achieve something know that helps me get out of this hole faster. but i don't know what.

Supermedo, i'm going to check the website you suggested. Maybe i can find some answers there.

Meanwhile, i thank you all again for your messages. And if you have any ideas for me please let me know.

Thank you again.


thesombravip.

Hi Sombra,
ben here....let me tell you my story...i joined a world class research institute to get my masters in engineering.from the very first day i appeared destined to be cursed. for 4 yrs i suffered from chronic illnesses that rendered me almost half mobile and very afraid to move out of town for the fear of upsetting my body's delicate immune system.my friends and relatives would make fun of my situation so much so that i didnt even understand why i had to continue living in the midst of such ppl.one of my doctor's even speculated cancer as a possible chance since i hadnt healed at all.....my research profession is a high repssure cooker situation that involves regular discoveries, and though exciting can be extremely frsutrating when u dont get results.mind you we work as if our lives depend on it....
im saying all these since i find a similarity here...i lost close friends in the whole of 4 yrs because i was recluse, lost 4 yrs of my precious youth,lost a hundred oppurtunities to go out for better universities etc...and yet today here i am 29 yr old, healthy and cured of almost all my health problems, publishing my work left,right and centre, working part time as a research consultant and looking forward to a great life...

so what changed in me??? during the time i suffered from my illnesses i only kept asking the same kind of questions--why should i suffer? is it my bad karma??? etc...the moment i stopped asking such questions and began being more grateful for what god has given me i began to heal( nothing changed in my medicines or diet!!).....the same holds true for u.u seem to be looking at the problem too closely and thinkign that u have a moster of a task to accomplish.brak it down into small pieces and u will see that they really are small problems...u made them big by worrying too much abt them....
i dont know what kind of goals u had then, but they should change once ur conditions change....not meaning abandon them, but prioritywise they should change.if u keep thinking of becoming a millionaire while having that debt ull be absorbed in self guilt and worry abt how that is even a possibility.rahter focus on paying off that debt.start small and grow big by being consistent in ur work and persisting with ur ideals.......

this is something i did and am reaping the benefits of it now.u too can...all the best....